Mario Breskic : Social Wall

Meine Social‑Media‑Beiträge – offen und ohne Anmeldung

  • Listening to the film Ex Machina and decided to correct something I kept trying to correct before: how my door to my consciousness functions.

    You see this text on your screen? It is on your screen, right?

    So it goes from your screen into your eyes (or ears, or whatever you use for these words to enter your mind), so the medium is a door to an inside, and I am in the same boat as you, right?

    I see, and I mostly read things. And tell you what? Most things you get to read, they make you crazy. Not books, no, but what bunches of people do online. Something about attention, something about journalism, something else about economies of things.

    At least, they distract me. And when they distract me from whatever it is I am doing, they end up on your screen, too. Distracting you.

    Imagine a closed door with me, a closed entrance: a firewall somewhere on this route, between what distracts me or makes me crazy, and what ends up in front of your mind, then, possibly, inside your mind.

    The correction lies in the following: to not use one of the key features of social media at all and ever again.

    That is, to share someone else’s­ content on your own page or account. Because that turns my stomach after a while.

    See, I want to make this whole thing work out for me, but if you come here, and you see a reblog of film gifs, another reblog about a detail of a painting by a painter, and another of some sort of activism, you get chaos on your screen.

    And that chaos then becomes what Code and Canvas is about.

    And that chaos is then in me. And then I present it to you. So, for the sake of clarity, as a cure for ambiguity, I am deleting all of the reblogs, reposts and what have you.

    Because I’d rather have that door closed shut than to have unwanted and unwelcome visitors, who then end up at your place as well.

    I want to be my own firewall. And ideally, I end up being yours as well.

    Fingers crossed. This needs to stick, for the sake of clarity, sanity.

    Source: My after‑hours blog on Tumblr Code & Canvas

  • This isn’t a first. This is not even one of the firsts. But I hope that it is the first next.

    Hello, my name is Mario and I want to communicate better than I did before.

    So now I want to put myself right. I want to know what I’m saying, so that you know what it is I’m saying. I used to make lists of things I’m not, and then write those lists out. Thinking about that, it makes me wonder if I then claimed to be all the things but those I said I wasn’t?

    If I never said I wasn’t a hare, how would you know?

    And if I was a hare, wouldn’t it be nice to just say that?

    I’m a graphic designer. Making graphics interests me. I study to learn how to make better graphics than I did before. I struggle with applying more time towards that goal. I am interested in fantasy and sci‑fi illustrations, especially that sweet spot occupied by book covers, be they books or graphic novels/comics.

    I’ve learnt a lot during my years studying for my degree, but I feel dissatisfied with my own knowledge: I think I know too little, and I suspect that I am alone in this among my fellow students from years past.

    I want this blog to serve the purpose of communicating what it is I am doing, what I am studying at the moment, to honestly leave a trail and I cringe at that thought: maybe years of being a punk have left me with an unhealthy view of working? But that is why I wanted this, why I even brainstormed a name for this blog, a name different from my own name: to maybe work through this strange feeling of lacking the knowledge, the craftsmanship, the skill, the talent, to really feel like a graphic designer.

    And maybe arrive at a new understanding of myself and what it is I want. I tried being cool online when it was all about coming off as cool. I tried self‑marketing, and I quickly quit doing that, because, you know, that too felt as fake as trying to be cool. Couple of other things, burnt out on these too.

    And now? Now I want to communicate with my own voice. I wonder what that’s like.

    I put together my study plan for this week, and I managed to study three days out of six so far. Imagine, before I put that into words, on my screen, I’ve felt like a failure because of that. I tend to ignore the sheer amount of stress and maintenance in my life, so when my own lofty plans for myself do not succeed completely, I beat myself up over that. I think some people call that perfectionism, but I think that is just a noun meaning many things to many people.

    I think my issue is my own inexperience with dealing with myself in a constructive manner that’s holding me back.

    This is still my first life, so I want to keep the study going. I don’t know if I want to work as an illustrator but I sure would like to be able to capture someone’s likeness and communicate an emotion.

    To me, graphic design is what I do. Not only what I do, but also. Maybe that is a good way for me to look at what it is I am doing and how I’m doing it. And now I want to know what is next.

    Some graphic designers have all the talent. Some are in magazines. Some drive nice cars, and like sports.

    I like to study design, and do studies. The world just might be large enough for me to allow myself to exist as such a designer as I am.

    Consider this me turning on my own lighthouse. Who knows for whose benefit? Who cares? Right now, this is for my own benefit.

    I just know that I need to be myself. Kind of forced to, really.

    Source: My after‑hours blog on Tumblr Code & Canvas

  • I’ve pulled away from social media throwing things my way: the distraction is mostly fueled by ennui , what my edition of Oxford Advanced Learner’s Dictionary of Current English defines as a “weariness of mind caused by lack of any interesting occupation”, and I can’t deal with that anymore. That, and because everything on social media is an ad: there might not be a product being sold, but the advertism as a style is firmly in place there. You might have noticed. You might have your own words for that, too.

    So here is how this will go: I have a few good ideas about how to go about studying graphic design for the next few months.

    I will invest time in finding out what a couple of books I have have to say about how to study successfully.

    I have already my bachelor’s degree, but I have noticed that I need to know and understand way more than was needed to pass my classes and grades.

    So, after a good nine months of figuring things out, after my defense, I am writing this to let you know that I am starting now. This is what studying for adults can look like. Expect chaos.

    This project will run for a few months, up until mid­‑April, so there will be weekly posts like this one, each Saturday. Why?

    Because I care.

    Next week is all about finding out how many hours a day I can realistically study, what I need to take notes, and how to stay away from said ennui. And I’ll start right away, reading up on how to use my time‑keeping software, Focus To‑Do. Next Saturday I should have a working schedule in place for studying. And maybe I can afford to rid myself of constant imbroglio.

    Source: My after‑hours blog on Tumblr Code & Canvas

  • @mariobreskic ↩️:

    Of course drawing and its pompous sibling also can afford us with that same toolkit, but I honestly have never thought of drawing and painting in such a way before: to me, they were both about creating what isnʼt/wasnʼt there before. Am I making sense or is this sleep-deprived crazy talk? asca

    Source: My Threads Account Mario Breskic

  • @mariobreskic:

    The existence of software like Blender has given us all the opportunity to recreate our memories of spaces by creating a representative of these spaces. I keep coming back to this idea, because it goes beyond a ready-made sort of photography, with props and abstractions. I find that neat. asca

    Source: My Threads Account Mario Breskic

  • No luck, restrictions in place, workaround takes too much effort as a workaround. Will wait for #ifttt fix #asca

    Source: My Twitter Account Mario Breskic

  • Instagram is offline for #ifttt due to changes to the Instagram API.
    I will try working around this using #rsshub in the same way I use RSSHub for my Threads account. #asca

    Source: My Twitter Account Mario Breskic

  • @mariobreskic:

    Art and design are businesses. I believe that this is not trivially arrived at in terms of understanding what this means for artists and designers because I myself was having a hard time understanding what this means. asca

    Source: My Threads Account Mario Breskic

  • Decided to spend the next few hours or days curating my library further. I am using Zotero for this, and after having added a few books over the years, there are a lot of tags in my library I have no use for.

    These tags have been added automatically, since I mostly add books by International Standard Book Number. So when I add a book to my Zotero library, it also adds all the tags someone has added to the database entry for that book. So, this is what I now deal with:

    Working with the web version of Zotero is faster, if you ask me.

    My system is really simple: I remove all the tags, and then add my own.

    I will then continue working through all of my graphic design study literature in the same way I have done before. With a bit of perseverance, I might be done with that by the end of the week.

    Source: My after‑hours blog on Tumblr Code & Canvas

  • Ich habs doch gesagt. Nachdem ich alle alten Ausgaben verschenkt hatte, blieb ein Tōa-Schwerindustrie-großes Loch in meiner Designerpsyche.Natürlich beim Fantasy-Store meines Vertrauens gekauft: Fantasy Strongpoint in Böblingen.

    Sieht cool aus. Print bleibt Königsklasse.

    #toaheavyindustries #tohaheavyindustries #tsutomunihei #comicbook #hardcover

    Source: My Instagram account Mario Breskic